When I try to think about specific experiences that have shaped who I am, none really jump out at me. I guess it is because the one experience that has shaped who I am today or at least contributed to it is one that is still hard for me to deal with. My dad left when i was 6. I still remember that night to this day. After he left he barely stayed in touch, and his side of the family basically cut me off completely. I still don’t really understand why they did this, but I learned to accept it. I guess this experience made me stronger, and probably a little more defensive than I should be. I believe it also prevents me from being able to trust anyone 100%. It also made me almost expect people to let me down, or to be let down in general. This experience has made me value my mom that much more because of how strong she was. She is the epitome of strength.
My expectations as a college student, besides keeping my scholarship, are to be focused and get good grades. I do not want to let anything distract me from school. I do not want any family issues or friend issues to interfere with my schoolwork. It is extremely important to me that I keep my grades up, not only because i want to and know that I can, but also because i want to make my mother proud. These are my hopes for the first semester and my whole time at Baruch. My only concerns are losing focus, keeping up with the work, and manging my time correctly.
OK I’m done.