Being the oldest child sucks! I hate that every time I do something I always have to be the first out of the family to do it. This means that I always have to make the mistakes before anyone else does. In one way or another I am creating a template for my little sister to follow, which is so unfair since I never had anything to follow.
Both my parents didn’t go to school and now they work full time and never seem to have free time. This all means that in one way or another, I have to become my sister’s mother. I don’t know if this is a good or bad thing but sometimes it’s just so overwhelming that I don’t even know what to do with her. Why is it that she is trying to grow up so fast, and making my life so complicated?
I don’t understand why I have to be the one always doing everything for my parents and sister, but my sister doesn’t have to do anything around here just because she is the younger one. I always have to be the one running here and there.
All the times that I try to help her and give her advice, I don’t even know if she is listening to me half the time. I became a big sister in January of 1997 and since then I don’t think I have ever gone through a day without worrying about what might be going on with her and how she is feeling. I feel like no matter how annoying she is I can’t possibly ever be mad at her for more than five minutes, which is why I guess being the oldest sucks!