First semester is nearly complete except for the finals. I think right now my situation is really terrible because obviously I have not yet prepared for anything since I’m such a stupid procrastinator. If you ask me how I have changed since I started college I would say I did not change at all as my procrastination routine is just inborn. I don’t know why I cannot change that. I did not have much expectations since the beginning. I knew that I would just mess up with everything. If I could do it again I might probably would not change anything since the thing that I actually have to change is my bad routine. Indeed I have to fix my mind and really fix myself. Motivation was gone since.. I dunno when, but I’m sure it was before college. My mind is getting more completed and there are so many problems other than school. There are lots to fix and everything just annoys me so much. Perhaps I am being a little bit cynical here. (or because I don’t know what to write?) Anyway I hope that everything will be better when the second semester starts. I just could not wait for the long holiday. I need a break to deal with the problems, and deal with myself. So yea, good luck to everyone.
December 11th, 2011
Posted by elain.ng in Blog Post 3