If you are keeping up with my blogs, you may remember that I pretty much had a bad feeling about Baruch. Well….I pretty much have most of those feelings still, but a lot of it has changed. For example, although I was worried about making a lot of friends in college, I’m fine with the few close friends I made whom are also in most of my classes. A few weeks ago, scheduling began for the Spring Semester, and I was kind of upset that I’m not in the same classes with most of my friends. It makes me wonder what our relationship will be like after Spring. I’ve recently been going to the library the past week every day after class to study for upcoming finals in a last minute effort to boost my grade. I took the elevator to the top floor where it’s less crowded and more quite. When I got to the top, I saw a few kids from my Calculus class. I’ve been going there every day and meeting more of the Macaulay kids. I never thought that the LIBRARY is where I would make friends, nor did I ever think that THAT’s the place we would hang out. I envy the group for not getting into the program (which I still don’t understand why because I did better than a lot of them in high school), but also because they have a really close bond with each other. Their personalities all blend together with each other, which makes it fun and easy for me, as an outsider, to converse with them. It also made me realize that Calc was the only class that I had that didn’t have 100+ students, so I’m getting a little upset that it’s almost over and I may not see the rest of those classmates again. If I could do first semester over again, I would go to the library more to study after class. What need to I have to go home right away? Just to watch TV? I know I can do better in school, but I just want some kind of inspiration/ motivation to keep my grades higher. I have SOOO much reading for my classes to do and my super duper long commute doesn’t make it easier for me to get work done. Between school, sleep, commuting, and the very little amount of homework that I do, I don’t have time for much extra studying because I MUST set aside at least an hour a day to ME TIME, where I can just watch TV and relax. Most people would say they have changed in college. I can’t really say that I have. I’m still the same slacker who has had senioritis since 11th grade. I still make people laugh all the time, which is my daily goal. I might say the only thing different is that, I’m keeping a bit more facial hair, and spending a lot more money. I’m worried about next semester. My schedule is spread out, I have more and harder classes, I will still be commuting, and I won’t have Fridays off anymore. I need someone who has been in my position or knows me well enough to tell me I will be fine and I will do well. More importantly….I need to believe them.
December 10th, 2011
Posted by timmy.stephen in Blog Post 3