My name is Kenneth Zheng; I prefer to be called Kenny—but that’s not important. I was born in Manhattan, raised in Puerto Rico, currently live in Brooklyn, went to F.D.R. High School (I know—SHAME!). I am shy, don’t talk much, and overly cautious about meeting new people. That last part is probably because I’m very cynical—I trust hardly anyone. I am also extremely apathetic. I don’t know if anyone else has this problem, but I hate having to listen to someone else complain and pretend I care. And I literally don’t celebrate anything (holidays, birthday, etc.) unless nagged into it, nor do I get excited for any of these events because I’m so apathetic about nearly everything.
My top three concerns about my freshman year at Baruch are:
- Not getting the GPA I hope for – In high school, I used to be able to do pretty good on every class without doing the least bit of studying/work. It’s not quite like that anymore in college (though I expected this). Now I’m seeing that I can only get a 6 out of 10 on a quiz after reading 30+ pages on the textbook. I guess I haven’t gotten a taste of real “hard work” academically.
- Deciding on a major – I have almost absolutely no direction in life. I am clueless about what I’m going to do with my life—no goals or ambitions. I suppose this could be traced back to my apathy. I guess I’ll just make it a goal for now to decide on a major.
- Finding a job – While my family doesn’t necessarily need more income, I feel terrible for using my parents’ money. I feel like I’ve done nothing to really deserve it. I feel like some bum staying home all day, everyday. I would like to just get a job, earn my own money, spend it whenever I want, and experience what it’s like to be in the workforce. The problem with this is that I don’t like dealing with people…
I actually don’t have too many concerns about college. I’m honestly not sure if that last one counts, but I threw it out there anyways.
I think what would make my college experience different from my high school experience would be more independence. Aside from traveling farther from home, I like that I pretty much don’t need my parents anymore for anything school-related (Aside from, of course, paying tuition >_< ). Don’t get me wrong—I love them and appreciate everything they’ve done, but they can sometimes be a huge pain in the behind.
Another way college differs from high school for me is the crippling amount of work that needs to be done. This is pretty much the first time in my life that I’ve been overwhelmed with this much work. The extra day to my weekend in my schedule doesn’t exactly help much either. But I think I should be the last one talking about “too much work,” since I don’t have a job. But that’s enough about me. I’m not really important.