Truthfully, I am afraid of many things. For example, bugs and insects are the things I am afraid of the most. I hate seeing one bug in my room; sometimes I call my room a “bug free zone” area. I see around one bug once every month or two. Once I couldn’t sleep in my room for two days because of a swarm of bugs around 20 just flying near the lights. I recently found out that I am also afraid of the dark.
I live a very simple life. It makes me happy when I am in my room where it’s just quiet and peaceful. It also makes me happy when my family and friends around me are happy as well. Food, music, dramas, and getting good grades also put a smile on my face.
My parents are important to me. I need them in my life to guide and care for me. An education is also important to me as well as a successful career. Even though I rather live my simple life, sometimes I have to be realistic and understand that an education is crucial for a successful future. But, health would always be number one on my list.
As of right now, I still feel like a stranger here at Baruch. I feel like I don’t have a lot of friends. I am trying really hard to get good grades but I don’t think that’s working really well. I tried to be more active by joining a club, but wasn’t sure what club to join.
I felt embarrassed once when I tripped on the stairs in high school. I didn’t fall but it was really clumsy and embarrassing. I quickly acted normal and looked around to see if anyone was watching. One time here at Baruch when I was ready to exit the New Vertical Campus building, where we swipe our ID cards to come in, I was pushing the turnstiles to exit but for some reason it didn’t let me go out instead I was pushed backwards. I thought that was embarrassing because there was someone in back of me trying to exit as well and instead I pushed into him.
I don’t really think there’s ever a time where I felt empowered, but maybe when I was a leader at work or as a mentor for little kids.
I have a lot of mottos that I follow and when sometimes there’s a situation whether in my family, my friends, or school life I love saying these mottos out to encourage other people. One of my mottos is for people who look down on themselves and don’t believe that they are special or something: “To the world you may be one person, but to one person you may be the world.” People also love to hear my quotes especially my mom because she always feel that I might be too pressured but whenever I tell her this is what I believe in, she’ll smile. Another one is: “The best and most beautiful things in the world cannot be seen or even touched. They must be felt with the heart.” Another quote is from a movie: “My Mama always said, “Life is like a box of chocolates; you never know what you’re gonna get.” I personally love this quote and believe in this. Life is full of surprises whether if it’s a good one or a bad one, life keeps going. I also love telling people to smile.
My biggest challenge with school right now is getting good grades. I feel like I am not doing so well this semester due to procrastination. I am also scared of failing my midterms and even more worried about the finals.
The thing I enjoy the most about college right now is the three day weekend. I get more time to relax and spend time with family. I love the college atmosphere because I remember seeing that in dramas or show when I was younger.