Reina Kottler on Dec 18th 2011
Although I’m still happy I came here, at the end of my first semester I have a lot of different emotions. There’s nothing I would have done differently, but no matter how glad I am that I don’t go to a big ol’ university, I’m not totally content with feeling socially isolated. But, in the past several weeks since I wrote my monologue, I’ve gotten a part-time job at a Japanese supermarket (which is really great), and I’ve done a lot more thinking about my future. Indeed, my classes and professors have exceeded my expectations this semester (except math), but I am absolutely positive that I want nothing to do with a business related major. When I decided to come to Baruch, I thought being here would motivate me to pursue business and start me off in that direction, but exactly the opposite has happened. I hate the competitive atmosphere here, and it has re-occurred to me that I have always hated math and economics and finance and all the things that people here like; by immersing myself in such an atmosphere, I only hate it more. I don’t know what I will do with my life, but I know I will not be in business. I also realized that I truly have passion for music. I always did, but I thought it was just a hobby for the longest time. Even being in a basic music appreciation class with a nutty teacher made me realize how much I already knew about it and how much more I’d like to know. My family and mentors throughout my life have highly discouraged me from considering fine arts as academic, but in the past few months I’ve come to strongly think otherwise, and have considered taking up a minor in music or possibly another artistic pursuit with my psychology major.
So, my overall conclusion about my first semester at Baruch is that I want to transfer as soon as I can. Hopefully by next fall I can start at Hunter to pursue more of a comprehensive liberal arts education.