For the third exhibition assignment, I would like to mention Joshua Lutz’s “Hesitating Beauty” which is exhibited on ClampArt Gallery in Chelsea. The subject of the exhibition is truth and reality, by using a collection of 18 photographs portrait Lutz’s mother who suffers from mental illness. Instead purely showing 18 straight forward portraits, he also includes other persons, self portrait, mailbox in a snow scene, exit sign and other photographs. He plays with our conception of reality to show the audience his own experience growing up in such a family, where his mother’s illness also affects other family members.
The exhibition is organized chronologically. The pictures show photographer’s mother from young to old with time passes by. Also with time slipped away, the mental illness of his mother changed from aggressive paranoia and depression to calming sense of delusion. This change “made it much easier for me to rid the anger that veiled my life and to attempt to find a place of empathy and compassion as I managed her care (Joshua Lutz).”
When he was a child, his way of interpreting the world was largely affected by her illness. She would try to figure out the pattern of the numbers on a license plate, and screwed loose the phone to check whether there was a recording bug. Joshua as a child was unsure of the reality and the rest of the world. Uncertainty and insecurity also became major problems of him. Fortunately, he has not developed serve mental conditions as he gradually growing up.
The first image interests me is the second image among the exhibition. It is titled “The Coming Insurrection”. No detailed description was found. In this image, a young woman (assume is his mom) with her eyes closed and mouth opened express a huge joy on her face. I think this was when she had not been tortured yet by the aggressive mental disorder and was still a happy and healthy lady. This one is also one of the most important components of the show because the audience is able to see the gradual transaction of motions shifting since then on.
The 11th photo on the exhibition, the “Exit 17” also is one of my favorite. The exit sign is put in the middle of a forest or wetland, with no real exit out. This is a metaphor of the mother’s mental condition went into the worst period and it shows how frustrated and desperate the whole was put into.
Last but not the least is the 13th photo “Do Not Wake”. It is also a very powerful image. An old lady with gray hair closes her eyes. Her eye brows are frown, and she gets a respirator in her mouth. She is in pain. A small note of “Do not wake” is stuck on the respirator. Here the photographer (her son) is actually playing a little bit humor as he also hangs a slice of paper written “solo **(sorry, cannot read it clearly)” at where the infusion usually be. However, I cannot feel the humor, but only sarcasm as I can see his mom is in so much pain and he is making a joke. But this might be a must as a way of expression.
What I have learned from visiting the exhibition is that Lutz tells a story of his family both subjectively and objectively. He featured his mother’s struggle as well as his own, which was painful. However, he tries to be calm and explain it using photos in a calm and sarcastic way. This teaches me that family struggle could be a good topic to explore. Things that not pretty or we would not initially want to share with others might always contain truth and reality.
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